{"id":296735,"date":"2023-11-30T23:25:51","date_gmt":"2023-11-30T23:25:51","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/sportstoft.com\/?p=296735"},"modified":"2023-11-30T23:25:51","modified_gmt":"2023-11-30T23:25:51","slug":"kamara-has-found-his-voice-again-after-battling-speech-condition","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/sportstoft.com\/soccer\/kamara-has-found-his-voice-again-after-battling-speech-condition\/","title":{"rendered":"Kamara has 'found his voice again' after battling speech condition"},"content":{"rendered":"
Chris Kamara pushed his mate just a bit too far recently. It was the day when Jeff Stelling finally told one of sport\u2019s most irrepressible characters to apply the brakes.<\/p>\n
Kamara is trying to get the words out as he runs through it all, but the struggle isn\u2019t for the reasons you might think \u2014 it\u2019s not about the blockages from a fun brain to a funny mouth and it\u2019s not about the darkness that fell in the worst of those times.<\/p>\n
No, this is the giggling fit of a 65-year-old man in recovery and the memory of a road trip from two months ago. We have spent the better part of 40 minutes going over the serious stuff but this is a segue to the more trivial business of life and death.<\/p>\n
\u2018Devil\u2019s Staircase in Sri Lanka,\u2019 Kamara says. \u2018That place. Oh my. So Jeff and I were there filming for a show we have coming out \u2014 someone had the idea to put us together on the world\u2019s most dangerous roads.<\/p>\n
\u2018I\u2019ve been lucky to have him in my life, but I nearly killed him on that road. It has been unused for years and we\u2019re going up and up in this little Jeep. I\u2019m driving, and on my side there was a straight drop of 200ft. Jeff\u2019s was a graded drop so maybe a better chance of survival. We have a foot of room either side.<\/p>\n
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Ex-Sky Sports host Chris Kamara is on the road to recovery after battle with speech condition<\/p>\n
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The commentator says he has his smile back after apraxia forced him to step down from TV\u00a0<\/p>\n
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\u2018The car kept lurching to my side because of the wet stones on the ground and he\u2019s hanging on. I\u2019m trying to concentrate, he\u2019s trying not to lose it, and eventually we get too close to the edge and Jeff just shouts, \u201cStop, I\u2019m getting out!\u201d Oh, the look on his face. Won\u2019t tell you how it ends but we lived.\u2019<\/p>\n
He\u2019s chuckling away like a happy man \u2014 like the Kamara we remember. The one we all know as Kammy. \u2018Even my sons call me Kammy,\u2019 he says and there\u2019s a laugh that could fill a barn at his smallholding in Wakefield.<\/p>\n
But it was never a persona. It was him.<\/p>\n
It was him when he was a jobbing midfielder across 10 clubs and four divisions, just as it was when he gave management a go, and it spread like wildfire to the rest of us in his 24 years as Stelling\u2019s accomplice on Sky Sports\u2019 Soccer Saturday.<\/p>\n
For a time, there was a bit of Kammy everywhere from Loose Women to Ninja Warrior and 30-odd other shows until there wasn\u2019t. But he\u2019s working his way back, one sentence and one television slot at a time.<\/p>\n
\u2018I had a call the other day from the producer at Dave about the series with Jeff and he was happy with it,\u2019 he says. \u2018He wants us to do more together and that was so, so nice to hear.\u2019<\/p>\n
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Kamara is back to driving old Sky Sports colleague Jeff Stelling mad after starting new YouTube series Jeff & Kammy’s Journey to Croker<\/p>\n
The difficulties that make this upturn so welcome are well known now.<\/p>\n
By the time we chat, he has been on a long treadmill of interviews to promote his brilliant new book, My Unbelievable Life, and naturally the talking points have orientated around his health.<\/p>\n
It was bleak for an awfully long while there; a sad tale of a man losing one of his greatest gifts \u2014 his gab \u2014 and with it his suffocation as apraxia took away his words and his confidence to perform in a career he loved.<\/p>\n
The slurring started in 2020, as is the way of a neurological disorder that jams the traffic between thoughts and speech, and you can still find the tweets of those who watched him on Sky and questioned if he was drunk on air.<\/p>\n
One of the kinder messages, posted on March 19, 2022, asked: \u2018Is Chris Kamara alright?\u2019 He wasn\u2019t. A few hours later, having struggled through his summaries at a fixture between Rotherham and Shrewsbury, Kamara went on social media to disclose a diagnosis of apraxia of speech that had been made at the end of 2021.<\/p>\n
Two months after sharing that news, he said in April 2022 that he would be stepping down from Sky. Ditto many of his broadcasting commitments.<\/p>\n
\u2018So hard,\u2019 he says.<\/p>\n
What wasn\u2019t discussed at that moment was how far he had fallen in his own mind before he sought help \u2014 his difficulties had been noticed by his wife, by Stelling, and several other concerned friends, including Ben Shephard, but for 18 months he kept all his anxieties to himself.<\/p>\n
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Kamara spoke of overcoming ‘the hardest period of my life’ – now he is improving day by day<\/p>\n
Those worries, that his job and identity were slipping away, cut away at a man who had once found levity in everything. His misplaced thoughts and gaffes had always been part of the charm; by then, they were his nightmare.<\/p>\n
In his book, Kamara details the blame he piled on himself for not landing a pilot show he was hoping to front with Shephard. That only intensified the spiral and same goes for the day he walked gingerly down from the gantry at Huddersfield and was told by a steward he reminded him of his frail father \u2014 loss of balance is one of the symptoms of apraxia.<\/p>\n
\u2018That was the hardest period of my life,\u2019 he says, and his words are clear, albeit spoken more slowly than they once were.<\/p>\n
\u2018I\u2019ve always thought I can overcome anything, like, \u201cI\u2019m Kammy! I\u2019ll put a smile on my face and see it through\u201d. But that smile disappeared.<\/p>\n
\u2018I was dreading being on air. I was ashamed of how I was. That little voice in my head drove me crazy, saying I was finished. That was a dreadful period, but I didn\u2019t understand mental health then.\u2019<\/p>\n
He interrupts himself.<\/p>\n
\u2018You know, I think a lot about Gary Speed (who took his own life in 2011),\u2019 he says. \u2018He had the best family and friends in the world. A close friend of mine. I don\u2019t know why that happened, but you have to talk to people. I didn\u2019t for far too long.\u2019<\/p>\n
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Kamara is best known for his work on Sky Sports’ much-loved Soccer Saturday programme<\/p>\n
The mention of Speed is relevant, because it was in the pre-diagnosis turmoil that a thought occurred to Kamara: maybe it would be better if he weren\u2019t around.<\/p>\n
\u2018I didn\u2019t want to be a burden to them,\u2019 he says. \u2018I wasn\u2019t sure if my problem was dementia and I just kept thinking in six months I won\u2019t know my own children. I won\u2019t know my wife. They\u2019d have to see me in a home.<\/p>\n
\u2018The brain takes you to places that are dark. I used to escape down to the stables with the horses and just be thinking, \u201cWhat\u2019s going on?\u201d.<\/p>\n
\u2018I apologise to my family and my friends now. I should have been open. My wife, amazing woman, was appalled that I ever thought they wouldn\u2019t do everything for me. You just have to talk to people. Just do it. I have got my voice now and I want to use it to help anyone who has been in this situation.\u2019<\/p>\n
Speaking with passion, the words come easily for Kamara. He raves about a visit to Mexico for pioneering treatment after his diagnosis and the reason he can laugh so much now is that his condition is improving. Hypnotherapy has helped greatly. But he still has no idea what brought it on or whether his condition might have been cured had he not waited so long to get it addressed.<\/p>\n
\u2018I could have probably sorted out my apraxia but we will never ever know,\u2019 he says. \u2018I am only telling you because I\u2019m not thinking about the \u201cwhy\u201d any more.<\/p>\n
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‘Kammy’ initially hid his condition from his family because he ‘didn’t want to be a burden’<\/p>\n
\u2018For a while I was looking at what caused it. I had three concussions when I played and a while ago I went with my two boys cat fishing in Barcelona. I fell from a staircase and banged my head on the floor. Who knows? To be honest, since I stopped looking for answers my mindset has been much better.\u2019<\/p>\n
Today, he is content. Happy. The response to his interviews has been \u2018so lovely\u2019 and the fact he can have these chats is a show of progress. \u2018Six months ago I was terrified when I would be asked to talk about it,\u2019 he says.<\/p>\n
Now, with a little warning on topics, he can bounce from the racism he faced as a player to the day his team bus at Swindon drove past his stranded future wife on the hard shoulder, and from there he can riff about car wrecks with Stelling. \u2018I thank my lucky stars I\u2019m getting better,\u2019 he says, even if there is a way to go.<\/p>\n
\u2018The speech is improving but the balance can be off. I can kick a ball with my grandson, but I can\u2019t jump into a 50-50 any more!\u2019<\/p>\n
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He is back to his old self, laughing and joking, as he promotes new book My Unbelievable Life<\/p>\n
The regrets are limited, though. He no longer misses his work on Sky, for instance, when he and Stelling became the glue in a wonderful ensemble cast of George Best, Rodney Marsh, Charlie Nicholas and others on Soccer Saturday. \u2018I did my time,\u2019 he says.<\/p>\n
\u2018I loved it. I got on great with Rodney in the end but at first he had this look of, \u201cWho the hell is this?\u201d because these were all great players. With George, he was the nicest fella from the start. I remember Ron \u201cChopper\u201d Harris coming on once with all these pictures of him kicking George and George sat there laughing and signing them all. The characters on that show were brilliant.\u2019<\/p>\n
Time has moved those characters on and as such the show is different. But all things change and to that end there is another story that makes Kamara smile \u2014 it\u2019s from a point in his playing days in 1991, when Leeds found him easier to replace than Sky did.<\/p>\n
\u2018They earmarked the money from selling me to get Eric Cantona!\u2019 says Kamara. \u2018I remember him coming in before I\u2019d gone. The first team were away so Howard Wilkinson tells me to take him for a jog around the track. I told this to Eric and all he says is, \u201cI don\u2019t run without the ball\u201d. You know, he did OK for himself.\u2019<\/p>\n
Kamara is laughing at that, loud and hard. And it\u2019s the nicest sound. The sound of a man who is back on the road and driving his old mates to distraction.<\/p>\n
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